More on Pallister-Killian Syndrome

First of all, thank you all for your amazing support over the last week. We've had a tough month or two, but are ready to get on with our new normal.

After the Dallas ice storm early last week caused our appointment to be cancelled, we finally got in to see the geneticist on Thursday. We arrived with a list of questions, knowing that many of them could not easily be answered, if at all. I've given most of them, with whatever answers we could get below.

We also received the formal write-ups from Torsten's physical and speech therapy evaluations at Baylor. Although it is not surprising, he falls into the 2nd percentile for speech, and below the 1st percentile for physical. We will be re-starting therapy twice each week for both ST and PT. We will be rescheduling the OT evaluation that we missed for our trip to Illinois asap, but will most likely start 2 appointments/week for OT as well.

On the bright side, Torsten has been more proactive with walking. Rather than only taking steps when we initiate it, he has occasionally started turning after standing at a chair or window and will take a few steps away on his own. Although it's small, it's a huge step for him. He's also been experimenting with new sounds. He lacks confidence though, and will rarely, if ever, repeat them when we ask. Although the progress he's making is slow, we're thrilled with anything new and never fail to celebrate it.

Thank you again for all of your love and support. It means more to us than we can put into words.

Love,

Ryan, Tasha & the boys


Q & A with the geneticist:

Q: Torsten's skin sample showed the chromosomal abnormality in 5.5% of the counted cells. Does this mean that he has a "minor" case of PKS? And what does that mean for his other organs? Will they all show a 5.5% abnormality as well?
A: No - the 5.5% does not mean that Torsten has a "minor" case of PKS, nor does it mean anything for his other organs. All it means is that the abnormality was found in the sample, which means that he has PKS. The only way to figure out the percentage of cells with the abnormality in other organs would be to test all organs. Since this is not possible, we have to check for issues where we know they are likely, and treat symptoms if/as they come.

Q: Do you believe we will run into behavioral issues in the future? We can see Torsten already experiencing frustration at not being able to verbalize his wishes and concerns.
A: Some behavioral issues are quite common, but this is something that we should not worry about until it comes. Until then, we should keep up with his therapy and help him to develop his speech and motor skills.

Q: Do children with PKS have a normal life expectancy?
A: Yes and no. If children are able to survive for an extended period outside of the womb, then PKS itself will not shorten the life expectancy of a person with the condition. However, anyone with a neuro-cognitive condition will generally have a shorter life expectancy than a person without. Note: We do not believe this applies to Torsten. The doctor gave examples of how such conditions could cause a shorter life expectancy and it seems to be more about how the individuals care for themselves/attempt to care for themselves which would cause issues later in life. The other scenario would be that a side-effect of the condition could be life threatening (heart defect, epilepsy, etc.).

Q: What are the next steps for us?
A: We will need to see a cardiologist to have a full scan of Torsten's heart and check for any defects. She also highly suggested that we start seeing a neurologist to prepare for the likely possibility that Torsten will begin having seizures at some point in the future. She explained that there are only two pediatric neurology practices in Dallas and that they both take a very long time to get into. Once we are established patients, things will go much more smoothly if/when he begins having seizures and we need to see someone. She would like for us to check in with her once/year to give updates on his health, development, etc. This is more to keep a record of how he's doing than to benefit him personally.

Q: We've always believed we would like to have a larger family. Although we've been reassured many times over the past 2 years that we are not carriers of any genetic conditions, can we be sure this is true, at least for PKS? It was also strongly recommended by our OBGYN that, if we were planning to have more children, we should bank our cord blood just in case it is needed at some point later in Torsten's life, especially since we have no idea where research will be at that time. Opinion?
A: First, PKS is not hereditary. We did not pass/give it to Torsten and it is not possible that we will pass/give it to any other children. We can continue to have children for as long as possible and we will not have another child with PKS. If we do have more children, it is always a good idea to bank cord blood. However, the geneticist recommended donating it to a public bank, since when you donate, you have a better chance of receiving blood/cells if you should need it in the future. The OBGYN recommended banking it privately.

My sweet boys -

Torsten found a water bottle and was "sharing" with Dane

Torsten's official diagnosis - Pallister Killian Syndrome

We were all in Illinois last week to say a final goodbye and to bury our granddad George. I think that by the time the call came in, we were already running low on tears. On Thursday morning, February 19, 2015, the geneticist called us herself while she was on a break from jury duty. Once you've worked with a number of doctors, you know that receiving a call from them directly is ordinarily not good news. 

Torsten's skin biopsy came back positive for Pallister Killian Syndrome. Although this condition is extremely rare, we were expecting these results and were not terribly surprised. We were scheduled to meet with genetics today to work out the next steps and get all of our questions answered, but unfortunately, the Dallas ice storm has closed down most of the city and our appointment was cancelled. We'll be meeting with her asap, but as Ryan and I discussed last night, PKS is so rare, that it's not likely that she'll be able to tell us much that we don't already know.

To help everyone understand a little about this syndrome, I've listed a few questions and answers below. If you have any other questions, please send them over. If we don't know the answer, then they are probably great questions for us to take to our next appointment.

Q: What is Pallister Killian Syndrome (PKS)? 

A: Also known as Tetrasomy 12p mosaicism, PKS is an extremely rare genetic disorder. Pallister-Killian Syndrome occurs due to the presence of the anomalous extra isochromosome 12p, the short arm of the twelfth chromosome 12p. The name Tetrasomy 12p means four copies of the short arm of chromosome 12 and the name Isochromosome 12p tells you that the additional chromosome (12p) is made up of two mirror copies of itself. Mosaic tells you that cells with the extra chromosome exist side by side with cells with a different number of arrangement of chromosomes. We're still researching and trying to learn all of this ourselves. Hopefully we'll be able to share more detailed information soon.

Q: What causes PKS? 

A: No idea. According to the geneticist, this condition is completely random. There is nothing we have done to cause it and there is nothing anyone can do to prevent it. 

Q: Will we have Dane tested for PKS? If we have other children, are they at risk for having PKS?
A: No, we will not have Dane tested for PKS. Dane does not have any symptoms of PKS. He is exactly where he should be for size and development. We have no worries about Dane. Regarding other children, it is extremely unlikely that we would have another child with this condition. We recently read that our chances of having a second PKS child are less than 1/400,000,000. Since this condition is random, we have the same chance as anyone else of having a PKS child.

Q: How many people have PKS? 

A: The total number is unclear, since undiagnosed cases exist. It is thought that there are less than 200 diagnosed cases in the world. However, one US hospital estimates that there could be significantly more than this number in the US alone. 

Q: What are the features of PKS?

A: It is very unlikely that all of the following features would be present. Some features can include: hypotonia in babies (floppiness), developmental delay, learning difficulties, delay or absence of speech, distinctive facial appearance (high round forehead, broad nasal bridge, widely spaced eyes, large mouth with thin upper lip), sparse hair growth around forehead, thin or sparse eyebrows, streaks or patches of darker or lighter skin, high arched or cleft palate, short arms and legs (not proportionate to body), diaphragmatic hernia (hole in muscular wall separating the heart and lungs from contents of abdomen), seizures, permanent hearing loss, heart defects, extra nipples, feeding difficulties and reflux, large big toes and extra fingers, epicanthal folds (skin folds across the inner corner of the eye) and a large tongue that develops after babyhood.

Q: Are there things that Torsten will definitely not be able to do?

A: We are not ruling out anything. We are just now getting back into speech, physical and occupational therapy. We have every reason to believe that Torsten will walk independently (and very soon), will speak and will have as much of a normal life as possible. As soon as we meet with his doctors, we'll begin looking at schools and programs that fit his needs. 

As we have been with every other issue that we've dealt with before, we are grateful that Torsten is ours. We will continue to work with him constantly and make sure that he remains the most happy, easy going and kind child we've ever met. It's an honor to be his mama, and Ryan and I will continue to make sure that we get the best care available for him. Thank you to all of our friends and family for your continued support through this recent diagnosis. 

Love, 

Ryan, Tasha and the boys

Torsten on his balancing bike - Feb. 2015

For more information on PKS, see the following sites:

http://www.pkskids.net/

http://www.rarechromo.org/information/Chromosome%2012/Pallister-Killian%20syndrome%20FTNP.pdf

Torsten, no label

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

I've spent every day of 2015 worrying about my son (and now sons), even more than usual. We've "started over" after taking a break from therapy, doctors, specialists and appointments overall. We're starting over with therapy and are getting fresh evaluations at Baylor over the next few weeks. We started over with a new geneticist and the genetics team at Children's in Dallas. And we started over with the tests. Although I feel somewhat guilty about it, I got to put on the blinders over the past 6 months, let my son be a kid and pretend that everything is fine. It's been a half year of sweet oblivion and I'm already missing it.

We made our first trip to the genetics department at Children's in the first few days of the new year. We spent several hours with counselors and doctors, all of them asking every question imaginable and going over every inch of our son with a fine toothed comb. At the end of the appointment, they came in with a few pages of information and told us they believed our son may have Sotos Syndrome. Of course we'd never heard of it and knew nothing about it. She gave us a few details, then told us that there is a blood test to confirm, but that it's terribly expensive and it was unsure if our insurance would cover it. One look between us and we knew we would be having that test regardless of the cost. We asked that they continue working with insurance, but we wanted the test, and now. An hour later, we were in the lab with our sweet boy, where we'd start over with needles and tests and pain. It's easy to forget how tough your kid is in all the ways you wished you didn't know. He watched the needle go in his arm, gave a little moan and looked at me for help, then just watched her draw blood without another sound. He's our little warrior.

After researching it on our own, we really felt that Sotos wasn't a fit for Torsten. There were so many things that just didn't fit - off the charts large head, extremely tall and high on weight charts, high birth weight and specific facial anomalies to name a few. His head has always been big, but never off the charts. And he's always been low on the charts for height and weight. He was an average sized baby at birth and the facial anomalies that identify SS kids weren't present with Torsten. However, I didn't want to be the parent in "denial", so I kept an open mind while waiting for the test results.

They said the results would take 4-6 weeks, but we got them in 2.5. They were negative. I called our parents, did a little happy dance and we celebrated with a bottle of wine. The counselor who called gave me the name of what they now believed Torsten had, so I made a note of it, told her I'd look into it that night and that I'd call her the next day if we decided we wanted to move forward with the next round of testing. For a few hours, we enjoyed the great news and celebrated that we got a negative test result.

Once we finished dinner and got the kids to bed, we began researching the next possibility, Pallister-Killian Syndrome (PKS). I sat on the couch with my computer while Ryan sat in the chair next to me on his. Barely a word was said for several hours while we both soaked up as much information about this chromosomal abnormality. Not long into our research, it was becoming apparent to us both that this diagnosis fit our son. It really fit our son. Several hours, plenty of tears and tissues later, we called it a night and decided that we would move forward with the next round of testing immediately.

Unfortunately, the test for PKS is not a simple blood test. A skin biopsy will be performed by the doctor herself this Thursday at Children's. They have to cut a small bit out of the back of his arm, send it off for tests and hopefully have results in 2 weeks. Until then, and hopefully after the results as well, our son is just Torsten. There are no other names or labels that apply at the moment and I've decided to enjoy that for as long as I can. The best news we could receive would be that he is just behind. He's had multiple surgeries and has always had a hard time catching up. Even if it's just me being in denial, there's a chance that I'll only able to deny it for a little while longer. Until further notice, I'd prefer to keep the blinders on and pretend that everything is fine. I hope the next time I'm writing, it's to say that everything IS fine and that Torsten is starting therapy and preschool soon. Until then, I won't quit hoping.

The good, the bad and the extremely dark and ugly

Hi friends and family,

If you've received an invitation from us over the last day or so about our blog, there is a good reason for it. Last week, while up with Dane at 3am, I received an email alerting us that someone had commented on one of the images of Torsten on our blog. I didn't recognize the name, but we originally kept the blog public so other parents could have access to the information we were teaching ourselves along the way, so that wasn't surprising. However, the comment seemed inappropriate, so I checked into the poster. The things I saw next, I've been wishing since that I could un-see.

The man who had found my sweet son's picture is a vile monster. He is a pedophile and child pornographer. His Google+ profile and blog are full of images of infant genitals, videos that I've been told contain the raping of babies (I can NOT watch) and comments about the terrible things he has done or was about to do with these children.

I immediately erased the comment, deleted the picture and changed our privacy settings on the blog to "private". I spent the rest of that night and most of the following day vomiting, crying and calling every agency I thought would care that this monster was out there hurting babies. I've spoken with the FBI (they seem ambivalent) and the Center for Missing and Exploited Children (they seem furious, in a good way). I'm planning to call the FBI back tomorrow because I just have to make them care about this. They told me that, unless there was a picture or video of the man "in the act" with a baby, there wasn't much they could do. Research is telling me otherwise and I hope that it's just the one agent who is confused about this.

I'll try to post an update both on this situation and on the boys soon. In general, they're both doing great, but things have changed a lot since the last post. I do promise more information soon and appreciate all of your concern!

Lots of love,

T & the boys

Plenty of Therapy

I keep hearing that people are still checking in on the blog and that I haven't updated it in ages, so I guess I should get busy! We appreciate that so many people are concerned and care about our sweet boy.

On one hand, things have slowed down since our last entry, but on the other, we're still keeping super busy. In general, Torsten is doing absolutely great. He's still extremely easy going and happy. He's taken reading to a new level and that's nearly all he wants to do. He loves having books read to him, but he's also fine just "reading" by himself and possibly even prefers it that way. He could "read" for hours on end.

We started physical, speech and feeding therapy in August and are still going strong. We started with feeding and light physical therapy. After several appointments with the speech/feeding therapist, she started to believe that Torsten's feeding issues were not behavioral. It took her getting vomited on a couple times, but he made a believer out of her. Once she saw that there was a larger problem at hand, she suggested that we see an ear, nose and throat specialist, so we did.

The ENT specialist told us that Torsten's tongue was definitely still tethered, or tongue-tied, even though we'd had his tongue clipped as an infant. He said that this could be part of his eating and speech issues, but that we shouldn't expect miracles from operating on it. With that being said, his suggestion was to operate as soon as possible because waiting to de-tether his tongue would most certainly lead to bigger issues. So Torsten had his most recent, and easiest, surgery during the first week of September. After the surgery, the doctor told us that Torsten's tongue was tethered much worse than he originally thought, and that he was glad we went forward with the little operation when we did.

Back at home later that day, Torsten was doing great. There was almost no recovery whatsoever. By the end of the day, he was blowing raspberries for the first time. Within a day or so, he was eating whole pasta, chunky food and crackers without choking and/or vomiting. We weren't prepared for miracles, but this felt like a major victory already. Now Torsten's favorite meal is Indian curry with fresh fish. He's become quite the adventuresome eater!

With his eating issues on their way to being solved, we requested that his feeding/speech therapist begin concentrating solely on speech. Unfortunately, to date, Torsten has not made any baby babble noises. He makes a lot of noise, but they are all breathing and belly noises - a lot of grunting, coughing, lip smacking and squeaking by sucking in air. We're still working with him constantly, but the only progress we've seen is that he's trying to mimic us, even if that only includes moving his mouth into an "O" shape with no noise. Even though he's not talking, he understands so much of what we say. He definitely takes part in conversations in his own way - and he has a lot to say!

We're seeing some slow progress with Torsten's motor skills. He's still not crawling, but he doesn't let that stop him from getting around. He does a kind of army crawl and rolls everywhere, and fast! He just started going from a sitting position to laying down, which was a big step in the right direction. I love seeing him do it - it's SO orderly and cautious. He lays straight down on his legs and very slowly rolls to one side so he won't hit his head on the floor. He's definitely our kid!

The only other issue that we're having is with Torsten's eyes. We are going back to the ophthalmologist next week to follow up from his surgery and to have him checked out again. His eyes are "wandering" again badly, and now it seems like it's not just his bad/left eye. We were patching his right eye for an hour each day, but now we're not even sure which eye should be patched, so we're waiting until we see the doctor.

Other than keeping up with all of the appointments, we're just enjoying our happy kiddo and staying busy! It's hard to be overly concerned about a kid who is so extremely happy all the time. Even if it's at his own pace, he IS progressing, so we're confident that he will be fine. Whenever we begin to worry, Torsten will do something new and flash his toothy grin, and just as quickly we're all fine again. He's such an absolute joy and we're so fortunate to be his parents. He brings a smile to the face of absolutely everyone he meets. He is the love of our lives.

Thank you all for caring for our sweet boy. I'll try to be better about posting updates!

Love,

The DeHarts

Torsten "reading", October 2013

Baby steps

It's been a while since our last entry, but I wanted to check in and let everyone know how our little guy is doing. Over the last three months, we've gotten more baby teeth, had a 1st birthday, gone on our first whole family beach vacation, added a nanny to our family and lost a parent/grandparent (Ryan's father). It's been an eventful few months, with no sign of slowing down anytime soon.

Torsten had a follow up with his urologist today to run a second set of urodynamics tests. Although the tests were still invasive, this round went much more smoothly than the last. He only really cried when they put in the catheter and when they removed it - he was quite the trooper throughout the actual procedure. I did have to do some mid-test singing, but I've done more embarrassing things for much less. We were able to meet with the doctor afterward and although he believes there could be an issue with bladder spasms, he said that there is an equal chance that what he's seeing could be normal for Torsten's age. We will need to go back for a sonogram in one year, but nothing between now and then, which we see as very good news!

We also had Torsten's one year checkup a couple of weeks ago and even though he's not huge, he's up in weight to the 20th percentile (up from being off the bottom of the charts). We're thrilled that he's growing and is back on the charts for size! Unfortunately, he's still quite behind in development - he hasn't crawled, pulled himself up on anything to stand, doesn't do any kind of baby babbling, seems to be having some eye and possibly vision issues and still isn't eating finger/whole foods. Because of this, his doctor has started him on both physical and speech therapy and suggested that we see his ophthalmologist again. We will have his first therapy session at our house on August 5th. We followed up with his ophthalmologist yesterday and he believes that the muscles in Torsten's eyes are keeping them straight about 90% of the time, which he says is good. He is also sending us to The Retina Institute to have this as well as his vision checked in more detail.

On the very bright side, Torsten is still constantly smiling and laughing, loves playing peekaboo and thinks it's hilarious, still loves reading and already has Nanny Emily wrapped around his chubby little finger. I hate that I'm no longer able to spend every minute with him myself, but we've managed to add a wonderful and loving person to our family and I'm reassured everyday that Torsten is in good hands and is loving life. We are so proud of our gentle, kind and loving little guy. He's so happy and sweet and every day is brighter because of him. We're sure that he'll catch up and that he's just decided to rest a little after a very eventful first year in this world. He'll do everything in his own time.

We hope everyone is having a great summer and that we get to see you each again soon!

Lots of love,

Ryan, Tasha & Torsten

Because just eating a cake is boring - June 28, 2013

Almost there!

To begin with, Torsten is doing amazingly well. We're not sure if it's just natural, but fast development or if it could be somehow related to his cord release surgery, but he has very quickly become much more flexible, is suddenly able to sit on his own without crying or falling within a couple of seconds and has started filling his diaper more easily and very regularly (less purple face and crying...). On the flexibility, Torsten could barely reach his toes until a couple of weeks ago - today he put them in his mouth for the first time. Also, before surgery, we had been working with him on sitting on his own for months. He could stay up for a few seconds before falling, crying or throwing up. He can now sit up completely by himself.

There are only a few lingering things that haven't quite gotten back to normal. We're still having a little trouble with pain. We tried to switch Torsten to ibuprofen at night a couple of weeks ago, but he screamed and cried for over two hours before finally going to sleep, so we put him back on the hydrocodone. Unfortunately, we ran out of hydrocondone a few nights ago and have been giving him ibuprofen since with the same reaction - screaming, crying and very little sleeping. I'm trying to give it a little longer before consulting with the neurosurgeon. Other than pain, we still can't give Torsten a regular or sponge bath because it hurts him and seems to badly irritate the incision (we thoroughly wipe him down with wet cloths each night), plus, we still have him in disposable diapers with the back folded way down, since the incision is still scabbed/peeling off/raw again. Even with these minor issues, we are so thrilled with the progress that Torsten has made and with the immediate improvements we've seen in him.

We met with the neurosurgeon a little over a week ago for Torsten's follow-up appointment and she too was thrilled with his progress. She thought that he looked great, that the incision was looking fine and that she wouldn't need to see us again, unless there were issues, for a year. She did recommend that we keep him on painkillers at night for a while and believes that, even though he's a tough little guy, he's still having pain. Considering our recent experience with the switch to ibuprofen, I think she's probably right.

So since everything is getting back to normal and the few remaining issues are very manageable, Torsten and I will be flying to Illinois this weekend. Ryan will be in Costa Rica for work, so we decided to head north for a week before I do a 10K in the Illinois Marathon on April 27th with my childhood friends Matt and Tim Hutti. I hope I can keep up with them!

We're so grateful for all of our friends and family and the support we've had over the past few months. We know how fortunate we are and are just so thrilled at how well Torsten is doing. We knew he was strong, but he still amazes us everyday. We're so close to putting this all behind us and are more than ready!

Working back toward normal

The last week and a half has been wonderful, challenging and scary depending on the moment. We came home from the hospital last weekend and were thrilled to be home, but having Torsten away from doctors and nurses was also a little overwhelming. We were and have been closely watching his incision, keeping track of his bladder and bowel function, keeping a notebook with the times he's been given any of the 5 medications he's on and were taking his temperature every couple of hours.

For the most part, Torsten has done great. He's been such a trooper and has not cried much, but instead has mostly picked up his normal activities where he left off. However, we started noticing a low-grade and lingering fever early last week, which wouldn't usually be concerning, but was strange since we've had Torsten on fever-reducing pain relievers around the clock. Around the same time, his incision started looking a little rough. It has re-opened slightly a couple of times at night, but has closed and dried back up by morning. We've been in very close contact with the neurosurgeon's office and have been given the guidelines for when to go to the ER, which we will avoid if at all possible. We're just being extra cautious until Thursday, when we return to the surgeon's office for a check-up.

For now, we've stopped giving Torsten sponge baths, since they seem to severely irritate his incision and hurt him more than they're worth. He'll be getting a good wipe-down every night, but nothing more. We've also stopped trying to cut back on his pain meds for the moment and are keeping him on ibuprofen and tylenol during the day and hydrocodone at night. Torsten was in a lot of pain two nights ago - we couldn't lay him on his back and had a hard time finding a way to get him comfortable. It was terrible to see him so upset and hurting so badly, so we're not going to push him quite yet.

All things considered though, Torsten is truly doing fantastic. He's such a happy baby that we have to remind ourselves that he had fairly major surgery less than two weeks ago. We're looking so forward to him being completely healed and putting this whole ordeal behind us. We know it's coming soon and are very ready! Thanks again to everyone for your amazing love and support!

Torsten's new wheels - he LOVES them!

We're out of here!

After a bit of a bumpy morning, Torsten seems to be doing great. He woke up every 3-4 hours all night hungry and with pain, but after a new dose of pain medication would kick in, he'd be back out for a while. He woke up this morning and nursed normally, but then seemed like he was still hungry/thirsty. We gave him some yogurt and water, which seemed to help at the time. However, he was fussy, didn't have any wet diapers and refused to eat for the next 5-6 hours. He eventually ate a little bit, but his diaper is still dry, so we're going to keep a close eye on both issues.

We also finally got the clear to hold him! After not picking him up for ~30 hours, I was dying for a little squeeze! We had a long family hug on the couch, but then realized that it's still more comfortable for Torsten to be laying flat. He's back in the crib sleeping now, but just to know that we can hold him when we want or need to is a huge relief. 

Since all of his vitals look fine, they were able to disconnect all of the monitors from our little guy. They also removed the IV from the top of his head, so he's looking much more like a baby and less like a mummy. :)

In general, the nursing staff here has been mostly hands-off. I'm not saying that this is a bad thing. If anything, it has prepared us for all that we will be doing once we leave. However, since we are doing everything for Torsten at the moment anyway, we decided that we could just as easily be doing it from home. We met with the neurosurgeon on duty a little while ago and requested to go home. He said that he thinks this is fine and is now working on our discharge for later this afternoon. We're going home!

So we've just learned how to care for his incision, we're getting plenty of pain meds, are keeping an eye on his eating and diapers and are getting our little guy out of here! I still can't say that any of this has been easy, but we've had a lot of time to prepare, other parents that have been through this supporting us and great friends, family and doctors caring for Torsten every step of the way.

I'll try to post another update over the next few days to let everyone know how Torsten is doing from home, but for now, we're just waiting for our walking papers, then are headed home! Lots of love to you all!

Tasha, Ryan & Torsten

Just after having the mummy wrap removed + first time being held in 2 days!

On the bright side

It's been a long day for Mr. Torsten. All of the anticipation and anxiety leading up to this day have been pretty miserable, but on a very positive note, we're on the bright side of the ordeal - the surgery is over. The big event that we've been stressing about for the past few months is actually over!

Even though we're past the main event, it seems like we have a way to go before we're back to normal. Torsten has had problems with pain throughout the day. We had his meds adjusted a few hours ago by the neurosurgeon on duty - they doubled the amount of hydrocodone that he's taking and increased the frequency. Things seem to be going better now and he was actually able to fall asleep a few minutes ago. The doctor also said to let the nurse know if he gets really worked up again and they can give him something to relax. The goal right now seems to just be to keep him calm, comfortable and still. Any stress or kicking around could damage his incision, which would be a huge setback. The hardest part of keeping this goal is not being able to hold him. He's getting upset about it and it's heartbreaking to have him reach out while crying and not be able to just sweep him up. Tomorrow is a new day and we're hoping we get the all clear to hold and snuggle him again. :)

We're thinking that this will probably be a long night. Our "in-room double bed" turns out to be a single and our munchkin has been reminding us fairly regularly that he needs pain medicine. However, the neurosurgeon should be coming by in the morning, and if everything looks okay with his back and his bladder, there's a chance that we could go home. From what we've heard from other parents that have been through this, the surgery is just the beginning and we should settle in for weeks of fairly intense rehabbing at home. We're hoping for a quick recovery, but are prepared to do whatever is needed.

Overall, it's been an amazing day. We may be spending our Friday night in the hospital, but our son's spinal cord is fixed, he doesn't seem to be in pain at the moment, we are watching March Madness from our room and the three of us are together. We have so much to be happy about and thankful for, including our amazing friends and family!

When the meds kicked in

When the meds REALLY kicked in